Sunday, July 8, 2012

photos + thoughts

just some photos that i've taken recently with my smokin hot camera <3

Things have been weird lately. And that might be why I haven't been blogging as much as I used to. I've lost all interest in everything I do. Things I used to like are now a chore. All I want to do is lay in my bed and go on my computer. I spend most of my days on tumblr just lying here listening to lana del rey. I've been like this for a few months now, I thought it would go away but my lack of motivation and interest has been never ending lately. I never ask my friends to hang out anymore, I only hang out with them if they ask first. My relationship with God is going downhill, I used to pray every night and now I maybe pray once a week. I used to care about school, now I can't even be bothered. I'm stressed beyond belief. You wouldn't imagine. Like I find church stressful sometimes. Everything stresses me out, anxiety is taking over my life. Everything is bottled inside but on the outside I'm showing nothing. I'm drifting, drifting far away. And I hate it so incredibly much, but there's nothing I can do about it besides watch myself drift.

wow this is the most personal i've ever gotten in a blog post. and to be honest i hesitated a little before i clicked publish, because people I know read this blog and that scares me and I really don't like it. But I promised myself I'd be more honest on here so this is it. The true me is not as glamorous as it seems, sorry guys.


Saturday, July 7, 2012

7th july.

July 7th 2011. 

It is not often that I remember exactly what I was doing exactly a year ago. But this year today I do. 

It was a year ago today that I left for Australia. July 7th 2011 was the scariest and most exciting day of my life so far. 

I can't find the words to say anything about Australia and my experience. It was a beautiful place with beautiful people. In my one month there I fell in love with it. I miss it so much it hurts. Going to Australia changed me so much.

It was the shortest and best month of my life. It went by so fast, it doesn't even feel like it happened, but i'm glad it did.

I was expecting for this to be a longer post, but i guess the only way for you to understand is to go to Sydney for a month yourself and see what happens. 

If ANY of you are ever considering doing an exchange program anywhere DO IT. It will change you. If you need convincing email me and I will tell you why you should.


Tuesday, July 3, 2012

pretty floral shoes.

this outfit basically = procrastination from doing history 

the shoes were bought to procrastinate from studying. the shorts as well. and the bracelets i made when i probably should have been doing homework. (i got all of it done, don't worry)

anyways, history is insane and i hardly have time to do much else (erm, except for tumblr..) buuuut it finishes next friday and so then i will have all of my time to be on blogger and tumblr and twitter oh my! 

oh, and would you guys like it if i did a diy post on how to do those bracelets? tell me if you would in the comments!