Sunday, July 8, 2012

photos + thoughts

just some photos that i've taken recently with my smokin hot camera <3

Things have been weird lately. And that might be why I haven't been blogging as much as I used to. I've lost all interest in everything I do. Things I used to like are now a chore. All I want to do is lay in my bed and go on my computer. I spend most of my days on tumblr just lying here listening to lana del rey. I've been like this for a few months now, I thought it would go away but my lack of motivation and interest has been never ending lately. I never ask my friends to hang out anymore, I only hang out with them if they ask first. My relationship with God is going downhill, I used to pray every night and now I maybe pray once a week. I used to care about school, now I can't even be bothered. I'm stressed beyond belief. You wouldn't imagine. Like I find church stressful sometimes. Everything stresses me out, anxiety is taking over my life. Everything is bottled inside but on the outside I'm showing nothing. I'm drifting, drifting far away. And I hate it so incredibly much, but there's nothing I can do about it besides watch myself drift.

wow this is the most personal i've ever gotten in a blog post. and to be honest i hesitated a little before i clicked publish, because people I know read this blog and that scares me and I really don't like it. But I promised myself I'd be more honest on here so this is it. The true me is not as glamorous as it seems, sorry guys.


9 lovely comments:

Anonymous said...

Claire, you are such an amazing person! These photos are wonderful, you are very talented and pretty, and don't ever forget that. It is so brave of you to show everyone how you really feel, and I respect you for that. I think everyone has off times, stay strong and faithful and hopefully everything will be okay. It's always darkest before the dawn. Stay in touch with people you like and care for, no matter who they are, and maybe the sun will begin to shine again.
Lots of love,

shay said...

wow. first off, kudos to you for putting yourself out there! sometimes its really hard to spill your feelings out to total strangers, but i find that you feel a little better once you get it off your chest. stress can consume you, but try to take a deep breath and not sweat the small stuff :) i love these photos too, they're awesome! you're so talented xx

Georgia said...

So sorry you feel that way, have you tried talking to someone?? You are just stuck in a storm waiting for a rainbow, it will come eventually and everything will be ok.

Claire said...

merci beaucoup pour ton commentaire ♥. jolie tenue ! xx

Dilan Dilir said...

beautiful photos :)

Satin and Souffles said...

Beautiful! xx


Emily said...

I completely understand, I am feeling the same exact way! I'm so unmotivated to do anything, I think the heat is getting to us! I hope you feel better! Don't stress out too much girlie!

Anonymous said...

hi claire,
everybody goes through times like these...this was me a few years ago. you should definitely try talking to someone about this (a parent, close friend, sibling, psychiatrist). you'll get through this! <3

Spencer. said...

Beautiful photos m'dear :)

I think it's amazing of you to be so honest and brave. I get a lot of anxiety and write essay-long blog posts that I never actually publish because I'm scared of the response, I can't talk to people in the real world about it, they just don't understand.

Really hope things turn around for you soon lovely, if you ever wana talk feel free to drop me a comment / email